Circles and Triangles

Us.....an unsettling thought that I try to block from my mind everytime I hear u speak. Something is there, beckoning me to eat from the forbidden fruit tree.
wanna touch u but my hands are tied.
wanna kiss u but my lips are sealed.

I'm running from u b/c your intentions have been revealed. U make me feel so at ease but I'll die if I stay. Simply put, she's getting in the way. Damn, I wish I met u at a different place in time. Then my internal struggle wouldn't be so damn complicated. I would just have to fight my feelings to save face...... not to fight an ever-losing battle against a giant I can't defeat.
Its morally wrong and I don't want u to hurt me like they did. Stop reading me like that, u make me blush from embarrassment like a little kid. Your spell is too strong and I'm trying to break free but honestly all I have are visions of you inside of me.

Wait, I'm confused...I don't know her and I don't see what you see. Sometimes I'm kool and other times I wish it was me in her shoes...that's not kool...if i cant be number 1 i cant be satisfied with number 2...but that's the hand I have to play. I have to keep my distance b/c u make me tap into certain things about myself that I try to keep locked away.

How do u do that shit?

Boy u need to quit...

We're playing with fire, and you're fueling my desires. You talk a good game and I wanna know its real but I keep telling myself "heart be still". I'll play my position and as a good friend should do, stay in my place. Just know that if she fucks up...how quickly she can be replaced.

Truth Is...Vol.1

some of you may not understand my reasons for doing this but in a way its kinda like therapy. i have to express myself somehow, what better way than this :-)

I heard a song today and it reminded me of you
Memories danced around in my head and I smiled at them all except for one...well maybe two...
I know you will never read this or hear me say these things but keeping it inside makes it hard for me to breathe
I have to carry the burden that I might've made one of the biggest errors in mankind
like a damn fool I walked away from you and now its too late
I know you're not tied down, dnt ask me how just know I have my ways
whenever you come into thought I get this overwhelming feeling of regret, and I dnt regret shit
although time has gone by and you've outgrown me, I owe you a few things...
an explaination, an apology, and honesty.
I walked away b/c I loved you yet I was selfish...yeah that sounds a little crazy...well maybe crazy as hell.
from the day you walked into my popcorn scented world I loved you.
you were a vision of perfection but there was always something hidden in your eyes.
tall, athletic, with an infectious smile that melted my heart.
long phone conversations, movie nights, playing hookey just to be with you.
time flew by and my feelings grew while yours remained dormant.
I wanted so much for you to let me love you unconditionally but that part of you I just couldnt touch
your heart is so big yet its well guarded like fort knox
I tried being nonchalant, shit didnt work
tried being sweet and patient, shit didnt work
it hurt me deeply but I felt I needed to love from a distance to protect my heart and give you space
funny thing is...it hurts more now that you arent here
I apologize for not being there to fight those battles with you, at the time I was selfish as hell
I apologize for the things I said
even though i feel this way, I am glad that I had those experiences.
remember the time we went to that bookstore?
I swear that was the most memorable times in my life.
It was like something from the pages of a Eric Jerome Dickey book
That was the day you rocked my world without removing a single article of clothing
Honestly, I havent felt the same way since and i want that old feeling back
I wish u knew...

signed by : Starchaser_0322